What do I Covet?

I was also reading in Luke 12 this morning, and these words spoke to my very heart.

13Someone in the crowd said to him, "Teacher, tell my brother to divide the inheritance with me." 14But he said to him, "Man, who made me a judge or arbitrator over you?" 15And he said to them, "Take care, and be on your guard against all covetousness, for one's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions." 16And he told them a parable, saying, "The land of a rich man produced plentifully, 17and he thought to himself, 'What shall I do, for I have nowhere to store my crops?' 18And he said, 'I will do this: I will tear down my barns and build larger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. 19And I will say to my soul, Soul, you have ample goods laid up for many years; relax, eat, drink, be merry.' 20But God said to him, 'Fool! This night your soul is required of you, and the things you have prepared, whose will they be?' 21So is the one who lays up treasure for himself and is not rich toward God."

I have learned that I like blogging. I like sharing stories about my family, sharing emails that I receive, sharing what I am learning during my devotions. I like the "somewhat accountability" of having a place to post my devotions so that I remember that keep having them. To keep thinking about what I read. THAT is the primary reason for me to keep THIS blog. I have blogs for other things, but this blog's primary focus is a place for me to be accountable in my devotional life. My prayer is to grow as a believer and to, if possible, encourage others to know the marvellous God that I serve, and to encourage them in their walk with him.

But lately I find myself wishing two things
1. that other bloggers that I really respect would notice me and put me up on their blogs
2. that more and more people find me and comment on me

I covet these things.

This is NOT good. It is sin. I don't know what God holds for me, but I know in this coveting, that I turn from God and see myself and my needs only.

And for that I must repent before my living Lord and say God, I'm sorry. Help me to keep MY focus on YOU. Not on others, not on comments, not on getting noticed, but on you and you alone. Help me My Father God to see you in my devotions, not just in what I can say that might get people to talk back to me. Continue to have your Holy Spirit guide as I read your word that I might be changed by you. This I pray through your son's name, amen.